This is my last week in Jakarta, it was a disturbing holiday for the last few days, start by continuing rain, weary flooding, hectic traffic jammed, than followed by endless disturbing call from work.  And the final knock down is, I can not come back to my apartment as the road in front of it was flooded 4 meter high … L

 

But, despite that all I do still have sweet holiday sensation, I meet and greet all my dearly friends, I chit and chat with my warm nieces and nephews, I shed tears and laughter with my best buddies, I did a lot of shopping [although the camera department still un-touch yet], watch cinema, having a relaxing coffee break, went to local favorite restaurants.. and many many more to come ….

 

But most of all I make new friend, again reborn with the experience of early love, being flattered by witty words, being pampered by romantic ambience and of course over joy of bewildering feeling of knowing that someone is actually there, caring, thinking, and to be missed …. Although eventually it leads to the other end, … how long this will last … ?

 

It is harder in experience to becoming than to be it self.  In the essence, in life we never be in a static motion, we are always in a constant process of becoming to something, whether we realize it or not.  I am now trapped in this process, it was started just before year end when I received more responsibility on work.  It is more intensifying every day and more to come.  Although I have seen this coming but I never expected it would be this difficult.

 

Firs I must deal with my bosses’ expectations, I need to manage their voluptuous endless demands.  Before it was only one person now it is more.  Second, it seems that everyone wants a crumb out of me, I need to listen to everyone’s problems, somehow they think it should also be my problems.  Third, the work load is increase which makes me murderously busy.  This has mark the end of my pampering time, good bye all of those traveling and leisure.  Last, of which I found is the most difficult part, here in Myanmar I don’t have circle of friend who support and understand me as the way I am.  I do have few best friends, but it felt different when we are in a group of friends where we can tell everything and be as truly as what we are.  Having this circle is more like having many strains of family, who are always there to love and to be loved sincerely …

 

Ironically this lonesome feeling is blundering when I had my year end holiday few weeks back.  True I was surrounded by my lovely friends, true I had wonderful moments, true it is the most happening event for 2006 in Myanmar.  But somehow, I can not be my self, I need to put a lot of restrained against my will to be true to my self.  I was mortified by my own expression, I was retarded from my own thought.

 

Again, I do believe that things are happening for some reason, eventually, I would comprehend being lonely and put away all the negative thoughts.  Because more and more time I spend not to waive this feeling, it will lead me to the oblivion of my life.  Now, I need to rejuvenate, I need to release, and I need to secure and today is my first day of my holiday in Jakarta.  Even I have not met anyone, but the energy is here [well, there are abundance of calls & text messages which greet my arrival J] …. At last I feel home, I feel save and I feel love …

 

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Peter Parker: Spiderman Quotes

 

“Not everyone is meant to make a difference. But for me, the choice to lead an ordinary life is no longer an option.”

 

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Dont Let Me Get Me [by Pink]

 

Never win first place, I don't support the team

I can't take direction, and my socks are never clean

Teachers dated me, my parents hated me

I was always in a fight cuz I can't do nothin' right

 

Everyday I fight a war against the mirror

I can't take the person starin' back at me

I'm a hazard to myself

 

Don't let me get me

I'm my own worst enemy

Its bad when you annoy yourself

So irritating

Don't wanna be my friend no more

I wanna be somebody else

 

I wanna be somebody else, yeah

 

LA told me, "You'll be a pop star,

All you have to change is everything you are."

Tired of being compared to damn Britney Spears

She's so pretty, that just ain't me

 

Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe somethin

A day in the life of someone else?

Cuz I'm a hazard to myself

 

Don't let me get me

I'm my own worst enemy

Its bad when you annoy yourself

So irritating

Don't wanna be my friend no more

I wanna be somebody else

 

Doctor, doctor won't you please prescribe somethin

A day in the life of someone else?

Don't let me get me

 

I wanna be somebody else

I wanna be somebody else

 

Having a pampering year end holiday with friends, where we were traveling around the scathed Myanmar.  In the essence, I got fabulous sighting, unique cultural, staggering history but most of all beautiful people.  I captured a glimpse of Myanmar people and try to share to all, from my eyes, how I admire life seeing these people …

 

Cute Little Monks

 

 

Serenity WIthin

 

 

Women of the Earth

 

 

Fisherman at work

 

 

Bathing a bull

 

 

Padaung Lady